A letter to my 20 year-old self

Dear Amy:

You just hit the big 2-0 and sadly, your mind is focused on the drinking age—a major world issue, babe. In one year, you’ll be legal. The fake ID with the Spanish surname will be a thing of the past. It’ll take some time, but you’ll realize you were never destined to be a cool cat. Sorry to break that piece of news.

You may feel rudderless at this moment, but prepare for huge life change. A path will become abundantly clear within the next 6 months. I’d say run fast in the other direction, but I don’t see another way forward. There is one visible choice mapped out.

(I’m considering what the Apostle Paul might write to his younger self.)

Along those lines, if I can offer any advice at this point, I’d say to ask someone about Jesus. This relationship would cast a different future, possibly freer, clearer, and less complicated. Though maybe not… honestly, it’s hard to say. Apologies for my squishiness on this front.

The doors you open and the choices you make will eventually be used for good. You’ll pay a steep price, but let’s not scare you with too many details… Know that the friends and colleagues you meet in the next two decades will sow into your life in ways unfathomable to you now. You’ll hit your 40s having worked in the extremes and for die-on-the-hill causes and be the better for it. You’ll realize you’ve marinated in the passions, ideas and the brilliance of dozens of people on all sides of the fence.

You’re just grasping there’s a world outside of yourself. You’re dipping your toe into issues related to justice and human rights, and this will fill empty spaces in your life. You’ll find purpose, meaning.

Soon you’ll graduate from school and get your dream job in Washington. You’ll grow wildly in gifts and talents you never knew existed. You’ll travel in well-schooled circles. You’ll feel deficient because you lack vast amounts of education, especially compared to colleagues from Ivy League schools. It’s the truth; you drifted in and out of high school and college without much thought. But here’s some advice, don’t be afraid of being found out and try not to feel inferior. People will love you. You’ll also rise to their level of smarts because it’s in you. You can only grow by surrounding yourself with talented people. Take advantage of it all!

My 21 year-old self. My first political fundraiser.

Fortunately, too, you’ll work for generous women and men who’ll mentor you in areas where you’re weak. This combined with your natural bravado and humor will provide a contrast to feelings of inferiority. Trust me on this!

In the near future you’ll long for something you can’t quite put your finger on. It will become clear that it’s the Christian God. You’ll look at those you face off against as an activist and be frightened by that prospect. Know that you should be frightened—stay away from those people! But also know that the vast majority of Christians are really good folks, and Jesus will change your life. Advice: Separate out the goodness you sense from God from the depravity of all human beings. They are not one in the same. I’m still trying to let that sink in.

Regarding your family: Be nice to your sister; one day she’ll be your best friend. Start writing down birthdays, because in 20 years it gets too awkward to ask the whens. And don’t pluck that one chin hair; it will eventually grow into a full beard.

Finally, you’re an idealist and you always will be– embrace that in yourself. However, you won’t change the world. Your destiny is much more personal, thoughtful and will alter the lives of individual people. Your heart will be soft for those hurting in our world.

But enough for now! In the coming days you’ll laugh a lot and accumulate scads of great stories. Write them down! And be good to yourself.

Prepare for a wild and rich journey, my young friend.

Love,
Your older and wiser self

 

So what about Christian unity?!

There is much to be said about Christianity unity, and the lack of it throughout Church history. In spite of the Apostle Paul’s best efforts, we do not strive for it among the brethren. To me, unity seems like a noble biblical principle, like loving one’s enemies: It’s a super, much-discussed exhortation, but rarely played out.images

This blog is not meant to be treatise on Church unity—certainly much can be said about it, particularly mass historical failures. That said, I thought I’d throw my cards on the table and see if anyone is interested in offering their thoughts.

I am a failure at bringing together polarized groups of Christians. Perhaps there’s too much water under my bridge. I did not like Christians before I became one, and I did not find a ton of reasons to like them en masse afterward. In fact, after 20 years of slogging through the culture war, I often see strife, and animosity simmering just below the surface of religion. I get easily annoyed. Call in the Holy Spirit brigade, this chick needs to be sanctified.

Several years ago, I took the mic during a town hall meeting at a conservative ministry I worked for and suggested we build bridges with Sojourners, a progressive Washington D.C. ministry. My argument seemed sound: We learn from them and they learn from us—and hey, wouldn’t it be cool if we could find common ground on an issue or two. I believed then as I do now, that God would be glorified through the relationship.

Well, this was not a popular suggestion. After I spoke, groans and eye-rolls came from all corners. Unity, what a dumb suggestion!

Looking back I realize that many of my colleagues did not consider Sojourners believers to be actual believers. Perhaps it’s their alternative views on war, the federal budget, approaches to poverty and the environment. They hold a different perspective on how the scriptures should play out in culture. I could imagine my colleagues rationalizing their beliefs with their own scriptural weapon: “Don’t team up with those who are unbelievers. How can righteousness be a partner with wickedness? How can light live with darkness?” 2 Corinthians 6:14.

Perhaps Sojourners would not have been open to dialogue either. I know Christians on the left who reach out and those who keep the door tightly shut. I praise my old boss Jim Daly at Focus on the Family for breaking through these barriers. He knows, as I know, that when you share a beer or a (veggie) burger with someone, it’s tougher to close down dialogue. I also praise my friend Jonathan Merritt, who in spite of his strong beliefs, often gives the “other side” equal air time on his popular blog.

I’ve been taken to the woodshed for my criticism of other believers on Facebook. It’s true, I can be a critical doo-bee. And it’s true, I harbor anger and lash out at those I believe cast my faith in a harmful light. However wrongly, I see them through the lens of someone who once desperately needed “living water” but was kept on dry land by believers exercising the worst kinds of evil. (See, there I am, building unity!)

I am a fan of transparency and honest dialogue. I will not forsake these virtues to keep the peace in the name of Christian unity. That mindset leads to damage. Transparency means that animosity is not cloaked in religion. Get it out there, with gentleness! Transparency means grievances, sin and brokenness are generally aired for the world to see, and for us to deal with biblically (and likely imperfectly).

The word “unity” is dismissed when it fails to subscribe to certain theological or political views. A pastor friend I have mad respect for, and would seriously follow to the ends of the earth, criticizes other Christian faith traditions. He is a so-called “wolf watcher.” I am quite sure he is a supporter of unity when others give a nod to his theological leanings. Otherwise, no dice…

Working in hospice with all stripes of Christians I tend to agree with Pastor Glenn Packiam when he says, “Let’s do each other the service of being more attentive and giving more weight to the best of each tradition/situation than to its caricature.” Amen.

So what to do? I believe unity requires us to sacrifice stridency and become authentically humble in our view of our selves, our faith, and our world. It does NOT mean lessoning deeply held beliefs… which I need to say, lest some believe I’m suggesting “soft” minded thinking. It does, however, mean admitting that you don’t have all the answers, that you see through a mirror dimly (1 Corinthians 13:12). I stand with you in that acknowledgment.